Putting Off
I don't like this, can't sleep at night because I am hanging over a cliff. Always in a state of going, never being. I want arrival. To achieve whatever it is I must achieve, so I can relax on my having achieved, put it behind me and out of mind, and simply be at ease. I hate transition; I want to be. I hate all this striving, the putting off of my life. Will I always be putting it off and achieving? Always the damn future? I yearn to get the future behind me, so I can be alive.
